CallMeHe

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I am being forced to dress girly for my friend's 18th, having narrowly avoided being forced into a dress. I was literally being made to feel bad about refusing to wear a dress, and I tried to tell them how uncomfortable I'd be, but that was hard without being able to say why. 
I've been extremely put off about coming out to these friends at all now, because one of them, upon discussing a local politician who happens to be a transwoman, she said "she looks like a man and she used to be a man, it is really quite funny." Which I found offensive and aggravating.  And here there and everywhere people remind me of my sex and how I have to be girly to go to parties. Maybe I should just not go to parties. Or leave my house. Even for work, where I get misgendered so much I want to cry. Same with college. But I can't say anything because I'm too afraid to come out of the closet. 


Also wow, wow, I haven't posted a journal in forever. .-.

So my college failed to add TDoR to the list of international pride/awareness days that it shows on the slideshow that is up every day. I sent them an email regarding this, and about how I felt it really should be mentioned. It turns out, my college gets the dates from a calendar that holds all the dates for the country that serves as a reference for all organisations in the country. TDoR is not on there, its existence is not even acknowledged. I think my college will be adding it to the slideshow now, but it doesn't change the fact that the UK doesn't seem to recognise that TDoR or transgender awareness week even exists. This is terrible. How are we supposed to spread awareness when no one even knows that there is an awareness day?

Things that really would make my life 182847692958281 times easier to put up with.

I was just thinking about what to draw for Transgender Day of Remembrance (open to suggestions, guys!) and I thought, why isn't there a trans pride day/week? All we have is a day to remember those we lost because of the awful things that can happen to trans people. That is hardly instilling hope for us, we should have a day where we show our pride, as much as our solidarity, where we can show the world that it's not all bad. There are pride days, weeks and months for many groups, but sinking into hiding and invisibility are the already overlooked trans community, and I don't think that is right!