Let me be XYMy chromosomes are wrong.My breasts are wrong.My hips are wrong.My space is wrong.I am in a shell, a prison.Stuck.Trapped, glued by 'miss', 'she', 'lady', my XXA sticky, thick mixture of feminine. I have never been me.Few people know who I really am.Him. He. His.Mr.I am Tristan, and I'm a normal boy. I just happen to be a biological SHE.But no one sees me, no matter how hard I try,I want to scream out for all to hear:Just let me be XY
SinkingThe tears sting moreWhen they refuse to fallHot, salty bullets of anguish.Assaulting my eyesAs I try to forget.I wake, like a brick wallIt's there in front of me,Even in dreams,I cannot escape.Surrounded by peopleI still feel lonely,Drowning, suffocating inThe tormentor's shroud.They don't see me,I'm not even there.Not really.The happiness ended long ago.I cannot reach the air above.Sinking, falling, leaving.Will I ever be visible again?To even myself?The cruel mirror lies,It's image of an empty shell,Its not me.I'm not there.I am broken.Save me.Please.
Not Trans EnoughNo, no I'm not alright.I thought I was okay when I thought I got over them. I thought everything was fine when I thought I knew who I was, but then they come in and tell me who I am and who I'm supposed to be.But low, I'm not even Trans* enough.I'm not Trans* enough because I'm apprehensive about taking T.I'm not Trans* enough because I'm not constantly ogling over girls.I'm not Trans* enough because I like to wear dresses from time to time.I'm not Trans* enough because I don't work out at the gym.I'm not Trans* enough because I like to Sew and Bake.I'm not Trans* enough because I didn't 'come out' when I was 3.I'm not Trans* enough because I'm not out to most people I know.I'm not Trans* enough because I don't pack (and don't really want to)I'm not Trans* enough because I don't have 'bottom' dysphoriaI'm not Trans* enough because my name is gender neutral. I'm not Trans* enough because I've only ever had crushes on guys.I'm not Trans* enough because public washrooms sca
omg im so right there with you bro